Escaping deep inside my mind,
Unsure of what will be uncovered –
What secrets I might find
Or if who I was can be recovered?
The tears that have run deep
Is not simply because of you –
There’s a bigger reason why I weep,
I forgot who I was – the person I knew.
Tapping into my memories, remembering –
The dust disappearing and unmoored.
Pictures in my mind leave me trembling,
The lies I believed and endured.
None of that matters any longer,
As I make solemn vows to myself.
Hands steady and soul much stronger,
Taking who I once was off the shelf.
Passion for art and writing lies within,
Too long, my heart’s desire stayed buried –
Not sure how long it’s really been
But now I toss away the burdens I carried.
Turning my pain into paintings,
My tears into ink dripped on paper –
Hands shaking, creating new writings,
Heartbreak thinning to a small vapor.
© Susan Moore