I meant to write this ten days ago
As a way to mark a year passed
Since the day you said I had to go –
How this year has gone so fast.
That day came and went –
And so did more days
Without the memory’s torment
Part of me is amazed…
Truth be told, I didn’t know how I’d survive –
Without you – after being together so long.
Then, I had no time for plans to contrive
Or a way to keep myself strong.
It’s been more than a year and I must confess,
The times you cross my mind are less…
Still there – yes- but not something I obsess
Nor is the history of us something I repress.
All those days have passed and here I am –
I thought I couldn’t get over the heartbreak
And how our love was nothing more than a sham …
Telling myself I’d never get over the ache.
Hidden deep inside, I’ve found that’s not true
And I am stronger than I ever thought possible.
Here and now, I’ve been able to come through
Breaking through obstacle after obstacle.
My heart’s been broken but it still beats
And the fire in my soul is still bright
Taking a breath and making peace –
Knowing, in the end, I’ll be alright.
© Susan Moore