Flawed Heart

Smiles and laughter realized again Deep in my soul, they still exist Despite the heartbreak and pain I remember what I dismissed.   Wordsmith of stories and poems Decades spent writing them all - Conveying different emotions - One second up high, the next I fall.   Did you happen to notice what was missing?…

Retrospectively Thinking About My Depression

When the new day starts in a few hours where I'm at, 165 days will have passed so far for this year. It seems like we just kicked off the new year and I could tell that it would be different at the start. I didn't know quite how at the time but I felt…

Rise Above

Rise Above Years have since come and gone When I childishly looked at the world - Then, age and realism dawned Causing my foolish heart to unfurl. A thirst to want to love and be loved, Was seemingly quenched And old ideas were proved wrong Lies poured and left me drenched. It would seem my…

Shimmer Of Hope

There are certain moments in a person's life that they can remember what they were doing on an exact day. August 6, 2016, which was one year ago today, is one of those times for me. It was the last time I've seen and hugged my 'wasbund'. I don't want to call him an 'ex-husband'…

Hidden Strength

I meant to write this ten days ago As a way to mark a year passed Since the day you said I had to go - How this year has gone so fast.   That day came and went - And so did more days Without the memory's torment Part of me is amazed…  …

Without A Trace

Could I have a moment of your time? It won't take long, I promise, The question is fresh on my mind And I'd love it if you would be honest.   The space between the mind and heart Doesn't seem to be that much space - But love can cause all wisdom to depart As…

Memories

Yes, I took my time moving on, Telling everyone I was taking it slow - Countless boxes piled high, Scared of what I'd find inside.   Memories buried in the dark - Hoping they stay where they're parked, God, don't let them rush into my mind - I want to leave all that far behind.…

Rest Of Forever

The sound of the clock in that quiet room, How it resonated against those lonely walls. Oh, How the ending that I felt coming did loom - No matter how loud my heartbeat would call…   Wanting, wishing, hoping for us to last forever - Some way to keep promises that we both made. The bonds…

My Looking Glass

Though my eyes need glasses to help me see, To take in all of the beauty of the world - They also allow me to see the horrors and pain, The price of hate and violence unfurled.   We are so much better than agony and killing. We are human beings, our lives already fleeting…

Love of a Lifetime

Try as though I may, I just can't outrun time - No matter how hard I pray. Memories will last me a lifetime.   Running her brush through my hair, Wiping away the tears ever so gently - Showing me love with the utmost care. God, these thoughts appear  intensely.   I still remember your…