Flawed Heart

Smiles and laughter realized again Deep in my soul, they still exist Despite the heartbreak and pain I remember what I dismissed.   Wordsmith of stories and poems Decades spent writing them all - Conveying different emotions - One second up high, the next I fall.   Did you happen to notice what was missing?…

Retrospectively Thinking About My Depression

When the new day starts in a few hours where I'm at, 165 days will have passed so far for this year. It seems like we just kicked off the new year and I could tell that it would be different at the start. I didn't know quite how at the time but I felt…

Rise Above

Rise Above Years have since come and gone When I childishly looked at the world - Then, age and realism dawned Causing my foolish heart to unfurl. A thirst to want to love and be loved, Was seemingly quenched And old ideas were proved wrong Lies poured and left me drenched. It would seem my…

Shimmer Of Hope

There are certain moments in a person's life that they can remember what they were doing on an exact day. August 6, 2016, which was one year ago today, is one of those times for me. It was the last time I've seen and hugged my 'wasbund'. I don't want to call him an 'ex-husband'…

Hidden Strength

I meant to write this ten days ago As a way to mark a year passed Since the day you said I had to go - How this year has gone so fast.   That day came and went - And so did more days Without the memory's torment Part of me is amazed…  …

Skills That I Learned From Grief

When you're a little kid, everything seems so simple and the only thing that you need to worry about is whether to watch this cartoon or that. Of course, I do come from the age of Nintendo and Saturday Morning Cartoons. Instead of playing with an iPhone, I was outside with my brother and playing…

Revenge Of The NutCracker

One goal I've always wanted to accomplish was to make movies and, today, I decided to try and learn how to create a Stop Motion film. I did have a lot of fun and, though this isn't 'spectacular', I do plan on making more and learning as much as I can for when I work…

Without A Trace

Could I have a moment of your time? It won't take long, I promise, The question is fresh on my mind And I'd love it if you would be honest.   The space between the mind and heart Doesn't seem to be that much space - But love can cause all wisdom to depart As…

Abundant Advice

Gazing at the clock and into the mirror, It's difficult not to notice, I'm not the same. My life's experiences upon my face shown clearer, Choices made - good or bad - I accept the blame.   Pain, laughter, tears, and smiles infused on my face - Every line tells a hidden story that is…

Good Enough

On the other side of my door - Where anything can happen - Never knowing what's in store, Finding safety inside has become habit.   Heartbeat racing as I prepare for the day, Hoping I can face the people I meet And ready myself for what they say - Their words could be bitter or…