The hands on the clock keep ticking, The pain in my heart still there All the more reason to keep kicking Face fear in the eye with a glare Every moment has led me right here All the times my heart was broken Still haven't caused me to disappear And the words I need… Continue reading Warrior
Retrospectively Thinking About My Depression
When the new day starts in a few hours where I'm at, 165 days will have passed so far for this year. It seems like we just kicked off the new year and I could tell that it would be different at the start. I didn't know quite how at the time but I felt… Continue reading Retrospectively Thinking About My Depression
Rise Above Years have since come and gone When I childishly looked at the world - Then, age and realism dawned Causing my foolish heart to unfurl. A thirst to want to love and be loved, Was seemingly quenched And old ideas were proved wrong Lies poured and left me drenched. It would seem my… Continue reading Rise Above
Shimmer Of Hope
There are certain moments in a person's life that they can remember what they were doing on an exact day. August 6, 2016, which was one year ago today, is one of those times for me. It was the last time I've seen and hugged my 'wasbund'. I don't want to call him an 'ex-husband'… Continue reading Shimmer Of Hope
Skills That I Learned From Grief
When you're a little kid, everything seems so simple and the only thing that you need to worry about is whether to watch this cartoon or that. Of course, I do come from the age of Nintendo and Saturday Morning Cartoons. Instead of playing with an iPhone, I was outside with my brother and playing… Continue reading Skills That I Learned From Grief
On the other side of my door - Where anything can happen - Never knowing what's in store, Finding safety inside has become habit. Heartbeat racing as I prepare for the day, Hoping I can face the people I meet And ready myself for what they say - Their words could be bitter or… Continue reading Good Enough
Why Am I Here?
Looking in the silvery mirror As if I were asking a seer - Squinting to look clearer Whispering, "Why am I here?" Keeping my gaze locked on myself, Haunted memories flood my mind… Heartbeat quickens, overwhelmed. Clenching my jaw, teeth grind. Far too many reasons to quit, Countless struggles to remember - Lies… Continue reading Why Am I Here?
During this time last year, I wrote on different stages of my thought process as I sought out help for my anxiety and depression. For those of you who have followed me over the years, you may recall how I bit the bullet and kept those appointments with my therapist. If you're new, here are… Continue reading Set Adrift
Escaping deep inside my mind, Unsure of what will be uncovered - What secrets I might find Or if who I was can be recovered? The tears that have run deep Is not simply because of you - There's a bigger reason why I weep, I forgot who I was - the person I… Continue reading Vapor
Through The Darkness
Overjoyed one day, I can’t stop smiling – The next, I can barely stop myself from crying. What path can I take so it can be reconciling? My mind can be great and then – terrifying. The battle that’s been waged for so long now, Only can hold the hope that it’ll one day… Continue reading Through The Darkness