Rise Above

Rise Above Years have since come and gone When I childishly looked at the world - Then, age and realism dawned Causing my foolish heart to unfurl. A thirst to want to love and be loved, Was seemingly quenched And old ideas were proved wrong Lies poured and left me drenched. It would seem my … Continue reading Rise Above

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Shimmer Of Hope

There are certain moments in a person's life that they can remember what they were doing on an exact day. August 6, 2016, which was one year ago today, is one of those times for me. It was the last time I've seen and hugged my 'wasbund'. I don't want to call him an 'ex-husband' … Continue reading Shimmer Of Hope

Skills That I Learned From Grief

When you're a little kid, everything seems so simple and the only thing that you need to worry about is whether to watch this cartoon or that. Of course, I do come from the age of Nintendo and Saturday Morning Cartoons. Instead of playing with an iPhone, I was outside with my brother and playing … Continue reading Skills That I Learned From Grief

Good Enough

On the other side of my door - Where anything can happen - Never knowing what's in store, Finding safety inside has become habit.   Heartbeat racing as I prepare for the day, Hoping I can face the people I meet And ready myself for what they say - Their words could be bitter or … Continue reading Good Enough

Why Am I Here?

Looking in the silvery mirror As if I were asking a seer - Squinting to look clearer Whispering, "Why am I here?"   Keeping my gaze locked on myself, Haunted memories flood my mind… Heartbeat quickens, overwhelmed. Clenching my jaw, teeth grind.   Far too many reasons to quit, Countless struggles to remember - Lies … Continue reading Why Am I Here?

Set Adrift

During this time last year, I wrote on different stages of my thought process as I sought out help for my anxiety and depression. For those of you who have followed me over the years, you may recall how I bit the bullet and kept those appointments with my therapist. If you're new, here are … Continue reading Set Adrift

Vapor

Escaping deep inside my mind, Unsure of what will be uncovered - What secrets I might find Or if who I was can be recovered?   The tears that have run deep Is not simply because of you - There's a bigger reason why I weep, I forgot who I was - the person I … Continue reading Vapor

Through The Darkness

Overjoyed one day, I can’t stop smiling – The next, I can barely stop myself from crying. What path can I take so it can be reconciling? My mind can be great and then – terrifying.   The battle that’s been waged for so long now, Only can hold the hope that it’ll one day … Continue reading Through The Darkness

Mingo Falls

My family and I took a trip four years and nine days ago that is still deeply ingrained in my memory. We went to the Smoky Mountains to enjoy a weekend away from everything and spent most of our time on hiking trails to find waterfalls and look at the beauty of nature. This particular … Continue reading Mingo Falls

Out Of The Comfort Zone

In yesterday's post, I wrote about my reality check and how I had a bit of a meltdown after a potential job turned me down. How I stayed up all night, just staring at the ceiling, and how my mind and anxiety got the better of me with thoughts of all the negative things that could possibly … Continue reading Out Of The Comfort Zone