The hands on the clock keep ticking, The pain in my heart still there All the more reason to keep kicking Face fear in the eye with a glare Every moment has led me right here All the times my heart was broken Still haven't caused me to disappear And the words I need… Continue reading Warrior
Rise Above Years have since come and gone When I childishly looked at the world - Then, age and realism dawned Causing my foolish heart to unfurl. A thirst to want to love and be loved, Was seemingly quenched And old ideas were proved wrong Lies poured and left me drenched. It would seem my… Continue reading Rise Above
Shimmer Of Hope
There are certain moments in a person's life that they can remember what they were doing on an exact day. August 6, 2016, which was one year ago today, is one of those times for me. It was the last time I've seen and hugged my 'wasbund'. I don't want to call him an 'ex-husband'… Continue reading Shimmer Of Hope
On the other side of my door - Where anything can happen - Never knowing what's in store, Finding safety inside has become habit. Heartbeat racing as I prepare for the day, Hoping I can face the people I meet And ready myself for what they say - Their words could be bitter or… Continue reading Good Enough
Why Am I Here?
Looking in the silvery mirror As if I were asking a seer - Squinting to look clearer Whispering, "Why am I here?" Keeping my gaze locked on myself, Haunted memories flood my mind… Heartbeat quickens, overwhelmed. Clenching my jaw, teeth grind. Far too many reasons to quit, Countless struggles to remember - Lies… Continue reading Why Am I Here?
During this time last year, I wrote on different stages of my thought process as I sought out help for my anxiety and depression. For those of you who have followed me over the years, you may recall how I bit the bullet and kept those appointments with my therapist. If you're new, here are… Continue reading Set Adrift
Through The Darkness
Overjoyed one day, I can’t stop smiling – The next, I can barely stop myself from crying. What path can I take so it can be reconciling? My mind can be great and then – terrifying. The battle that’s been waged for so long now, Only can hold the hope that it’ll one day… Continue reading Through The Darkness
From time to time in my life, I've taken many a deep breath - Recall words that cut like a knife Remembering a loved one's death. Trying, striving, wanting to know If this is the way events should come - Or a simple phase that I'll outgrow - Worries of what other people think I'll… Continue reading Purpose
My family and I took a trip four years and nine days ago that is still deeply ingrained in my memory. We went to the Smoky Mountains to enjoy a weekend away from everything and spent most of our time on hiking trails to find waterfalls and look at the beauty of nature. This particular… Continue reading Mingo Falls
Out Of The Comfort Zone
In yesterday's post, I wrote about my reality check and how I had a bit of a meltdown after a potential job turned me down. How I stayed up all night, just staring at the ceiling, and how my mind and anxiety got the better of me with thoughts of all the negative things that could possibly… Continue reading Out Of The Comfort Zone