Retrospectively Thinking About My Depression

When the new day starts in a few hours where I'm at, 165 days will have passed so far for this year. It seems like we just kicked off the new year and I could tell that it would be different at the start. I didn't know quite how at the time but I felt…

Shimmer Of Hope

There are certain moments in a person's life that they can remember what they were doing on an exact day. August 6, 2016, which was one year ago today, is one of those times for me. It was the last time I've seen and hugged my 'wasbund'. I don't want to call him an 'ex-husband'…

Why Am I Here?

Looking in the silvery mirror As if I were asking a seer - Squinting to look clearer Whispering, "Why am I here?"   Keeping my gaze locked on myself, Haunted memories flood my mind… Heartbeat quickens, overwhelmed. Clenching my jaw, teeth grind.   Far too many reasons to quit, Countless struggles to remember - Lies…

Nerve

Eyes closed and I count to three, This fear will be the death of me. Fingers - one by one - clenched tight, Mustn't look at the source of fright.   Keep your eyes closed, stop breathing. At least, make it so your muscles are freezing. Say that over and over again, reminder to avoid…

The Graveyard

Good morning, everyone! Normally, after I've finished creating a piece of poetry, I'll post it up here for you to read without anything said beforehand. Not so much today. I wanted to throw you guys out some warnings. This particular post is in response to the #DearDepression tag that was written to encourage awareness for…

Death’s Knock

Death's Knock   Matter of my mortality raised, Understanding at a young age. Sightless stare leaves me dazed, Childish heart filled with rage.   Year after year has passed, As does those I adore. Life as well as pain won't last, Death's knock loud at the door.   For me, it will one day beckon,…

Grease Burn

The other night, I was cooking chicken the southern way - fried it in some grease. So, there I was; waiting for the grease to get hot and getting the seasonings all put on and floured it up. Then, as I lowered the thigh in the pan, BAM! It exploded right as I placed it…

“Time: A Harsh Mistress” Available

For the past eighteen years, I have wanted to do something that I thought would never happen. Until today. I wanted to give my mama a birthday present. February 19, 1996 was the last time I would ever be able to celebrate my mother's birthday with her. After that, I couldn't give her a gift.…

Dream Weaver

  Dream Weaver   Too many dire thoughts There they are, can't you see? Floating before my eyes Oh, how I drown in this sea....   My legs pushing fast Reaching out once more I will not go down so easy Clenching teeth, I swore.   Why won't the noises stop? I pray for a…

Hello, There

  Hello, there It's nice to see your smile Ask how I am And say you're an ally.   Why, hello there I hope you are quite well I ask how you are Good day, my friend.   Turning my back I have to go Your voice I heard Speaking of me...   Words you…